How I See My Ideal Life

Wealth

1.     I want to have plenty of money without having to work.

2.     I want to be able to share my riches with family and friends.

3.     I want to be able to donate money to people who need it.

4.     I want to be able to travel with my husband and my dog and meet new people and heal myself, Chris, and others.

Health

1.     I want to be and feel strong.

2.     I want to have the ability to easily hike for miles and enjoy many different parts of nature.

3.     I want to live from joy instead of fear.

4.     I want to be vibrant and joyful.

5.     I want to be confident and loving.

6.     I want to feel vibrantly healthy in mind, body, and spirit.

7.     I want to become someone who loves to be active and feels stronger and better when I am active.

8.     I want to encourage others to be active and to move.

9.     I want to be the kind of person who meditates every day.

1.  I want to be the kind of person who stretches and makes time to strengthen and stretch my body.

1.   I want to feel better than I have ever felt in my entire life and continue to feel that way  for the rest of my life.

Love

1.     I want to grow in my love with Chris.

2.     I want our love to flourish.

3.     I want us to find ways to enjoy eachother that we never thought possible.

4.     I want to find new ways to love my husband.

5.     I want to find new ways to explore sexuality with him.

6.     I want to feel closer to him.

7.     I want to get stronger with him as individuals and as a couple.

Career

1.     I want to heal people.

2.     I want to provide energy healings to those in need.

3.     I want to find other healing modalities and train myself in them so I can provide a variety of healing options.

4.     I want to become more intuitive so I can offer psychic readings, Tarot Readings, and Oracle Card readings.

5.     I want to send love and light to people in new and unique ways.

6.     I want to provide guided meditations for people.

7.     I want to help to awaken those who are not yet awake.

Spirituality

1.     I want to learn more about ascension and what I can do to prepare myself for it.

2.     I want to teach others about what I’ve learned about spirituality.

3.     I want to move on to the next step in my spiritual awakening without fear.

4.     I want to keep doing research and continue my spiritual learning by reading books and watching youtube videos.

5.     I want to meditate more.

6.     I want to heal the earth and the people on it.

7.     I want to see what is hidden from me.

8.     I want to have an ET experience.

9.     I want to see the matrix and understand it.

Family

1.     I want to spend more time with my niece and nephew.

2.     I want to spend more time with my family in general.

3.     I want them to be prosperous and happy.

4.     I want my family to be healthy.

5.     I want my family to love each other.

6.     I want to heal them all.

7.     I want to be there for them when they need me.

Past Life Regression Meditation

I woke up to find myself as a fairy. I had dark hair and fair skin. I had big brown eyes and my wings
looked like those of a monarch butterfly. I was wearing a dress of some sort, but the dress wasn't clear, it kept changing in my vision.

I was barefoot and I could feel the grass underneath my feet as I stood next to my unicorn companion. I stared into her eyes and her into mine. We had a very close connection. I found myself instinctively petting her mane and her head as we stood together. 

The world we were in was different than anything I had ever seen. Everything seemed to glow with this rainbow light. 

Me and my unicorn were standing by a stream that was surrounded by bright colored flowers. Nearby was a forest and in the distance I could see a silver castle glowing in the sunlight. I could see tons of rolling hills covered in glowing flowers and a rainbow in the sky. 

The voice on my meditation asked me to go to a different time in the same life time that was of importance. At first, I was having trouble getting past the initial picture of me as a fairy with the unicorn, but as I let go a bit more, my mind took me deep in the woods with other fairies. Each had a different look to them. Each was wearing different colored clothing and had different colored wings and there were male and female fairies. I stood in the middle of them all and I was being granted a position as the guardian of the unicorns. 

Shortly after this vision, the person running the meditation told us it was time to go home. So within seconds I was out of my past life and back to my home. 

I will be honest. I have been looking at pictures of fairies and unicorns lately, so this could have just come from those. But, I have always been drawn to fairies and I do believe that I was one in a past life. Maybe even many past lives. Maybe when we are strongly drawn to things it's not just because we like them, it's because it reminds us of a different time, a different life. 

My Spiritual Self

Aliens/ETs 

I know what you are thinking. Why in the world would Aliens or ETs be considered a part of a spiritual belief system. Well, first of all let's start with the question; "Have you ever seen one?" "Do you even believe they exist?" The idea of Aliens and Extra-Terrestrials is just about as well known an idea as Jesus Chris and God. But, before I go into why Spirituality and Aliens go together for me, I want you to know that they don't replace my belief in God or even in Jesus.

I believe that Aliens are part of who we are as humans. I think that they are one with us as they are part of the multi-verse. We are not alone. There is a God, but God didn't just create one Universe and one Solar System and one planet that could hold life. So, what does that tell you? That there are many many many many other planets out there that support life and that DO support life. This isn't something that I just believe either. I internally know that it's true. I resonate with the information. I didn't come upon this information internally, I got it from people that are often referred to as "Whistle blowers".

I have always been interested in Aliens and ET life and when I was younger I also had a great obsession with the stars. I would plan whole evenings where I would just lay on a blanket and look up at the stars. I was always interested in UFO stories, all the stuff that came out of Roswell, and really anything else that came up that I could find. As I got older and information was easier to come by, I still held my interest in UFOs, but it wasn't until I was 35 that I really started to find the information I'd been looking for my entire life. It all started when I started watching a television show called Cosmic Disclosure on Gaia TV. I was glued to the screen and couldn't get enough of the two main whistle blowers that came forward on that show to share their experiences with secret government programs and experiences with Alien beings from all over the galaxy and the multi-verse.

Before being privy to this information which resonated with me and which I did believe wholeheartedly. I had already started meditating pretty regularly and also had been dabbling in the arts of the Law of Attraction and I'd had some little successes with making it work. Throughout what I call my Awakening. I was diagnosed with Leukemia, and this didn't stop me from continuing my spiritual work, my meditations, and to stay positive. After I was done with my first round of treatments, I felt pretty great and went right back to learning more about Aliens, ETs, Government cover ups and any other information I could get my hands on.

Okay, so on to the more spiritual stuff, since that is what this blog is about. Part of the show Cosmic Disclosure talks about Earth's ascension to 4D. Without going into it, it's sort of similar to the rapture explained in the bible, but better in my opinion because the rapture talks about taking all the "Good Christians" up to heaven and leaving everyone else down here on Earth to suffer through the Apocalypse and then die and go to hell I assume. However this Ascension is for all humanity. According to Cosmic Disclosure, humanity is currently going through a mass awakening. We are all waking up to the reality of what truly is and started to shed our old beliefs and seeing ourselves for the divine beings that we truly are. After learning about all of this, I started to meditate more, and to try to connect with my divine self. I've taken classes, worked with other spiritual people, joined a FB group that is filled with like-minded people from all over the world, and have connected with someone from that group who is here in Minneapolis. The biggest thing for us all to remember, is to trust in the universe or God, or Source, or whatever you want to call it to bring us forward into whatever is next to come. We are highly valued, loved, and protected.

Okay Great! If you got this far and you are still with me, I applaud you! That last bit probably sounded like pure nonsense to you if you aren't familiar with it. If you are curious, I strongly recommend watching Cosmic Disclosure on Gaia TV. There are also other shows on there that might be easier to watch and bring about your own awakening. I thank Gaia TV for waking me up to the truth.

My First Belief 

So, our parents bring us up a certain way, sometimes they let us decide what to believe in when it comes to religion or spirituality, and other times they teach us what we should believe based on what they believe. I was brought up Christian for example and for a while I was the only one in my family who went to church and did all the religious things like getting baptized and going through Confirmation. I also went on two mission trips during this time. I don't take any of that back, that is all still a part of who I am today. However, my first spiritual belief that I ever came up with on my own was that EVERYTHING IS ENERGY. This was after I had noticed how corrupt the church was and that was when I decided I wasn't sure what was good anymore. I always thought I had been on the right path, but when I started to doubt my spiritual path, I decided that the only thing I knew for sure was the EVERYTHING IS ENERGY.

What Else Do I Believe?

I believe that certain crystals have healing powers and can deflect negative energy. I also believe that they each have different qualities that make them unique and give them different powers.

I believe that the human mind is a very powerful thing and that we, as humanity, have only scratched the surface of what we can do as the human race.

I believe in God, the ultimate Creator. However, I believe in a different God than the one from Christianity. I DO NOT believe that any God that is made of pure love, would also create a place called Hell where "bad" people go when they die and suffer forever. I especially don't believe that God would ever send all those that don't believe in him to Hell as well. It just doesn't make sense and it just isn't true. There is a conspiracy theory that says that the original bible didn't even have Hell in it. Hell was added later on as a means to control. I also believe that God is us and we are God. There are some who believe we were created by God, but there are others who believe we were "seeded" or "created" by Aliens who have a vested interest in our growth as a collective. If it is true that Aliens created us, it does not mean that God did not, because God is us and God is them and God is all of us.

Ascension

I believe that Earth is going through a shift right now and that ascension for humanity is right around the corner. It requires us to do lots of inner work so that we cal all ascend to the new earth. Ets are here to assist us through this transition. This will be a smooth transition and the Aliens will help us through and provide for us what we need. We do not need to be afraid of this. This cycle happens every 25,000 years.

I believe we all have spirit guides and I have at least 4. Two of these guides or Extra-Terrestrials and one is Christ and one is my Grandma. Christ has been showing himself to me in meditations since I was going through my relapse Chemotherapy which was a really tough time for me. He came through in a meditation a few times and gave me gifts. Some were light and one was a dove.

I also believe in Angels and Angelic energies. My Mom was going through a tough time when I was in the hospital for the first time with Leukemia since she was also dealing with my Grandpa being in assisted living and not being happy about it. She was at the Grocery store looking at produce when she noticed a woman staring at her. She turned to look at the woman, and she said something, but my Mom didn't quite make it out and so my Mom said "What?" and the woman repeated. "You can only do one thing at a time." So my Mom took this as a message from the angels, it was obvious that her spirit guides were speaking through this woman and my Mom knew she could only do one thing at at time and I think that helped her get through that rough time.

I think there are ways to communicate with the other side. When I activated my spirit guides I asked them to provide me with synchronicity to show me that I was on the right path. And the night after I activated them I saw my first one. It was 11:11 on the clock. Since then, I've seen "Angel Numbers" all over the place. 222, 333, 444, 555, 777, 999, 1111, and some times up to 4 numbers in a row or certain numbers together like once I saw 1111 and 5555 on a sign and then saw it again on another sign. If you don't understand numerology or the significance of angel numbers, please look them up, there is lots of great information online. If I see one of these numbers, I often google it to find out what it's significance is, to see if there is a specific reason I am seeing that number.

My Mom and I were sitting in her living room downstairs and suddenly we heard this music box playing, and I was so freaked out because we were alone in the house and it seemed like it was right out of a horror movie. It was coming from upstairs and I told my Mom not to go up there. She listened to me, but when my Dad came home, he went up there and found the music box sitting on the laundry room floor. The weird thing was that the music box has never played on it's own since AND, my Mom tested it later on and it wouldn't play when she wound it up because the switch was turned to off. It wouldn't play unless the switch was turned to on. So there was definitely something supernatural happening. We both believe it was my Grandma, because it was when my Grandpa was in assisted living and wasn't doing well.

What I Know About the Afterlife

First of all, There is no death. Energy doesn't die, it just moves on. Becomes something else. You have an energy that is inhabiting your body and is who you really are. It is your soul. So as many religions believe, and you may have guessed, when you die your soul leaves your body and you enter the spirit realm, This is why your loved ones can no longer see you, because you aren't in physical form. Some humans can see the spirit realm, but many cannot. At this point you have entered into a "creative space".  So, if you believe that you will go to Heaven when you die than that is what you create for yourself. If you believe in reincarnation, you create that for yourself. Whatever you believe is going to happen, will happen.

There is no fear in the afterlife. There is no sadness, no anxiety, no negativity. There is only love.

Lessons can be learned at any point of your existence, including in the afterlife. You can choose to experience more lives on different planets if you choose or you can choose to experience more lives on Earth. You can rest, you can play, you can do whatever you want.

You might have to escape what the conspiracy theorists refer to as The Matrix first. I was told that to do this you have to turn away from the light and think "I want to go home." and you will be there, wherever your soul originated. Or you say "Show me the matrix and all of it's exits." and then go through one of the many exits.

I'm unsure if loved ones that passed on are actually there to greet you after death. There has been some confusion on this. Some have said that loved ones being there after death are just entities making you feel comfortable so you follow them into the soul trap. Also known as The Matrix or Earth's reincarnation cycle. Some believe that this soul trap has been taken down now and is no longer a concern, but I feel it is worth it to mention it, because if it does exist people should be aware.

I also believe that we live forever and we live to experience, learn, grow and eventually return to source which is the ultimate goal.

Why Did I Choose to Go Vegan?

I first decided to go Vegan after being diagnosed with Leukemia in July 2017. My reasoning for changing my diet was for health reasons. I had done tons of research and I just wanted to do something that I had control over, which was what I ate. Since I was diagnosed with a possibly fatal disease, switching to veganism or a plant-based diet as some would call it, was super easy. It just made sense and it was easy to stick to the diet. Also, after sticking to the diet for a few months, I fixed all of my gastrointestinal problems that I had been having for years.  

After becoming vegan for health reasons, I started to educate myself further on diets. During my consolidation chemo which happened over 3 months, I spent a good amount of my time watching food documentaries. A few that I watched were "What the Health", "Cowspiracy", and "Vegucated" which are all on Netflix. I also read tons of articles, joined vegan Facebook groups and continued to educate myself on what was going on in the world and how humans eating animal products was negatively effecting the world. 

My veganism morphed into not just a way of healthy eating, but a way to help heal the world, to save precious lives, and to be a part of something bigger than myself. During this time, I also went through a spiritual awakening, where I started to see things differently. There had been this curtain over my eyes for years and and now I could finally see. I felt better eating vegan, body, mind and soul. 

Spiritually: Being vegan has been the right choice for me spiritually because I am no longer putting the energy of suffering creatures who went through a stressful and tough life and then were cruelly slaughtered for me to eat their flesh. Just saying it now sounds barbaric to me. I once was a meat eater, but now I could never do it again. 

Mind: My anxiety has lessened since starting a plant based diet and I am mentally stronger and more capable of taking control of my reactions in most situations. I'm also more capable of finding peace within myself and this is something that I've always struggled with. 

Body: I feel stronger eating a plant based diet. I have more energy than I ever had when I ate animal products, and I just feel all around healthier now than I did when I consumed meat, dairy and eggs. Also, as mentioned above, eating this way cured me of IBS and GERD which I had been struggling with for years previous to switching to a plant-based diet. 

My favorite thing about being vegan is that there are so many products out there that make it easier to make my favorite meals vegan. I still get to enjoy my food, or have pizza when I have the craving, or eat my favorite dishes when I want to because everything can be made Vegan. I also have a great community of Vegans on Facebook that are happy to answer any questions about local Vegan restaurants or what to use as a substitute in a recipe, or a substitute for a favorite dairy product. 

I've also become quite the Vegan Chef. See my Vegan Cooking Blog Here. I love pulling recipes from Pinterest and elsewhere and make them at home. I love planning our meals and then sharing the delicious vegan food with my husband and with others. My favorite thing is to have a friend or family member tell me that my Vegan food is good, better than they expected, or that they would have never known it was vegan. 

This was my choice and it is my path. I'm not writing this to force it down your throat or try to get you to join me in being Vegan. It just happens to be the right choice for me and I know in my heart that this is the way to go. 

Something that I have to tell myself every day is that each person walks their own path and that each person gets to choose what they do every day, what goes into their bodies, and what kind of person they are, and what kind of life they lead. That's not up to me. But I did want to share my vegan journey with you. It has brought me much light and much positive energy, but it has also brought some struggles and realizations that have helped me learn and grow along the way. 

If you made it to the end of the blog, I just want to thank you for taking the time to read this and I want you to know that I respect you and your life path. Live on and Live Well. Life is short.